Oh, S, this must be devastating for you. I can't imagine what you are going through. Selfishly, I'm glad you're writing this because it means that taking all the meds didn't work. I'm so sorry that you felt so awful that you felt that was your only way out but you are worth so much more than that and I hope that you can come through this and be a strong person without him.
Practicalities: First of all, are you safe? Secondly, you must get legal advice of some sort. He has no right to throw you out of your joint home. He has no right to assault you, mentally or physically. Then, do you have joint finances? If so, go and change that before he comes back. You have an opportunity while he is out of the country. Use it. Your sister or your friend might help you, perhaps. You may still have feelings for him - I know I still did for my ex, even though he was mentally abusive. It is really hard, but you do not deserve this. You will be better without him. You will be able to vid and write again, without fear. It will be a hard time, but you need to do this. Be strong. Hugs.
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Date: 2017-03-07 09:58 pm (UTC)Practicalities: First of all, are you safe? Secondly, you must get legal advice of some sort. He has no right to throw you out of your joint home. He has no right to assault you, mentally or physically. Then, do you have joint finances? If so, go and change that before he comes back. You have an opportunity while he is out of the country. Use it. Your sister or your friend might help you, perhaps. You may still have feelings for him - I know I still did for my ex, even though he was mentally abusive. It is really hard, but you do not deserve this. You will be better without him. You will be able to vid and write again, without fear. It will be a hard time, but you need to do this. Be strong. Hugs.