Everyone has said everything, but I just wanted to add my very heartfelt sympathy. I'm so glad your episode with the pills was unsuccessful. Look for help wherever you can - family, friends, work, church, doctor, whatever. You say you're a fairly isolated person so seeking help will be hard but you need a circle of support. Remember people like to be needed so don't be shy about asking. And keep telling us how you are and what's going on. Quite a lot of us are in UK and might be able to offer practical help. Plus, all of us can offer to listen. I'm nowhere near Portsmouth but I'm at the end of a phone line - pm me if you want my phone number or Skype number. Or email. I have both legal and counselling training, and am retired so will listen for as long as you wish.

It was a shock to read this on International Women's Day and remember that even among our educated first world 'privileged' group there would be some who suffer mostly because they are women.

Please take care of yourself and try to realise that we all care.