I'm so astounded that so many responded to my post. Me and LJ have never been comfortable bedfellows but I had to write something somewhere and having no platform on my pals laptop I chose here.

I know that you are all talking perfect sense, though I also know I won't (can't) act on your good advice.
I work full time in a responsible job, but it's low paid and I've been broke for as long as I remember.
If I could afford to get me and my beloved animals (dogs and fishes) out of this place I would.
I think I know now that I'm possibly an abuse victim, but have no easy way out.

Husband knows that I've depended on him largely (since he promised me the world) but now I can't deliver in return.
I have few funds, I'm not really ready enough to endure his adultery (even though I'm obviously lacking) and I become emotional when confronted.

Everyone on television and social media seem to be talking about wonderful things. I'm jealous of every happy couple (or even happy person) I hear about. I feel so very alone in this, but I thank you all for taking the time to comment, it means everything xxx